Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Well 32 pounds down and 100 to go! I dont know if I will ever hit my goal weight, but I am happy that I lost the 32 pounds so far. I am almost done with my shot, I have 3 days left of the shots and then I have 3 weeks of stabilization. I will be all done with the diets on March 20th, just in time for our Smith family party that we are in charge of! I hope that I have at least another 20 pounds to loose before this series is over, which will be really hard, but I really hope that I can loose them. I am trying to decide if I want to finish the stabilization then start another series right after my birthday (27th) Then that way I can be done by June, which means being done in time for the bear lake parties, or I could wait a couple of months and then start another series of shots. What do you think I should do? I hope I see a lot more weight coming off soon!
Friday, February 11, 2011
Yay! I have lost 25 pounds! I dont know how I feel about that, well I know how I feel about it, but I am in a little shock, the only way I have ever lost that much before was by being pregnunt. I know I lost the weight but I am not seeing it in my self yet. I havent noticed my clothes getting losser or any thing, but according to some people I lost some of the weight in my face. So I dont know, I am looking forward to the day where I can go to a store to get clothes and I have to get a smaller size, I am not at that point yet, but I hope to be soon! I need new recipes of things that I can do with chicken, so if you have any please send me a comment, I am getting sick of just boiled chicken. So please send me recipies! Keep cheering me on! I need it! I am about half way done with this diet, and I hope I loose a lot more then I all ready did. So I am hoping to start seeing the weight that came off in my self soon! Please leave comments and encourage me!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Yay! I have lost 23 pounds in just under a week! I am very excited about that. But I do find it hard that I have lost that much yet the only place we can tell that I lost it is in my face, and I know for a fact my face did not weigh 23 pounds heavier. Oh well hopefuly I will start to see it soon and I will be abble to start wearing smaller clothes. I am sick of being the size I am I want to be healthy! I wish I could go out walking more for I kind of lost my walking buddy for the time being for the fact that she has a very hectic life right now. I am having a really hard time walking on the tread mill. I know I need to do it and get it over with but I still find it hard to do. I like walking out side a lot more, and that is hard when it is cold out side for I am worried about the girls getting sick. I hope I will start feeling better about my image soon I still look at my body and go man there is a blimp in a half! I just have so many fat rolls its discusting, I never want to be like this again! I want to be in a place where I am healthy and I can start looking cute. Please help incourage me so I dont loose the motivation I have!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Yes I know I weigh the same. But the truth is my weight has gone up and it has gone down in the past few days. I am still on the shots. They are going well, I have lost 15 pounds since I have started. That is very nice. I am getting a little frustrated that I am not seeing the pounds come off quicker. But I am starting to notice that my tummy is not as big. I can look down while standing up, and I see my boobs and not just a big fat pouch under the boobs. So I guess I should go out and buy my self a tape measure so then that way I can measure my stomich every day instead of my weight. I am having a really hard time staying motivated to walk on the treadmill. I get on there and it is so boring! Then I end up only walking 5 or 10 minutes unstead of the hour hour in a half that I do out side. I know that part of the problem is the cold, I dont want to get out there and walk in the cold with the girls, unless I have some one telling me ok we are going walking today and we will be there in 10 minutes. Its weird for excersize I need people telling me that we are going out to excersize and they give me no choice. I normally really hate that but it seems like for excersizing I have no other choice. That just seems to work better with me. The diet it self is still going good, I have not cheated once. Which I am really shocked about, I thought I would start cheating a long time ago. I went to my familys superbowl party and I was amazed I did not cheat and have any of the things that they were having. One of my key motivation things (that was keeping me motivated) is gone now. I really wanted to go to Spain skinny, I wanted to fit in the air plane seat with out asking for a seat belt extention. I wanted to be skinny while I was over there and look cute in a new swimmingsuit. But we filed for our tax return and it was not as high as we were expecting. So Jeremy gets to go over with out me. I knew there was a good chance I would not be able to go but, I never really thought I would not be going. So I think my new motivation is to be skinny for my 10 year high school reunion. Its scary though for that is a year and a half away. But I have all ways wanted to prove my class mates wrong. I want to prove that I am not just a blimp, I can be pretty as well. I have to say I hope this weight will start comming off faster then it is. Cause I am getting a little discouraged that the weight on the scale is not going down day after day. I know my neighber said it could go one of two ways, it could be that I loose a bunch of weight at the beginging and then twords the end I start loosing the inches, or I can loose the inches at the begining and the loose all the weight at the end. I seem to be doing the latter. I am 1/3 the way done with my shots (I have 19 left) Then after my shots I have 3 weeks of stabalazation. That puts me at March 20th. It seems like forever a way and I am hoping it will pass by quicker then I am expecting it to. I have so many partys comming up and holidays that it is really hard to pass up the yummy food. But I do have to admit it is getting easier to pass it up. But I still find it really hard when they have cakes and cookies and thouse types of yummy things! Please pray for me that I can find the motivation and that I can stick to the diet! I need all the help and support I can get!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
So yesterday was the first day on the diet. I did not have to hard of a time in the morning for I was sick most of the morning. but after I had a nap I felt a lot better. I did not cheat the whole day! I am very proud of my self for that! But I do have to admit it was hard for I at about 6 and by 9 I felt like I was starving. So I ended up going to bed early so I would not cheat. I know it sounds lame but I dont have good self control at all! Today has gone better I have not felt as hungry today but I have be CRAVING SURGAR! I dont get why, I guess all the srugar is starting to leave my body and so now my body wants it! I am hoping things will go better for me from now on. I dont like that I feel starving all the time, but unfortunatly there is not a lot that I can do about that right now. I want to be skinny. Part of my problem is I dont see my self as skinny or see my self as ever being skinny. And that scares me, I am wondering if I am doing this to prove to my self that I can be skinny. ( By me saying "be skinny" I mean being a smaller size and healthier) I want to feel better about my self I want to be able to sit on seats with out worring that I am going to break them, I want to be able to ride the roller coasters at lagoon with out having to be squished in them, I want to be able to ride in a plane with out having my hips be squished and asking for a seat belt extention. I dont want to go to my 10 year high school reunion being as big as I am now. I want to be cute! It has been hard though for Jeremy will offer me food that I cant have or he was going to the store to get something and he asked me if I wanted any thing. I was surprised I turned him down both times. I did not know I had that in me. Tomorrow will be the true test. We will be going to my moms house for dinner. I will be bringing my own food, but I just really hope I can say no to her yummy food!
Friday, January 28, 2011
So today I took my second shot, I have to say that I like my results all ready! I got on the scale this morning and it said that I lost 8 pounds all ready! I had to weigh my self three times to make sure be each time it was eight pounds less then yesterday! Yes! I hope I can do this through the whole diet! Yesterday was my last loading day, So I basically ate every thing I wont be able to eat while on this diet, I ate my Dark Chocolates I ate ice cream, and macaroni and cheese I had hot dogs. I thought for sure I would gain weight yesterday for if you eat any thing with surger or starch you are supposed to gain weight and it said that I already lost 8 pounds! So today is the first day that I will be eating healthy. I have to admit that i am scared. I am so nervous that I am going to feel hungry or starving and then I will forget I am on my diet and I will just go to the cupbord and find something to eat. I made my self some signs yesterday telling me what I can eat and I am going to be taping them around the kitchen, so hopefully I will see them and remember that I am on the diet. I am still scared that I am going to eat what they tell me to eat and then I will still be starving. I was told that HCG kills your appetite but I guess my appetite is so huge that I am afraid that the amount of food they are telling me to eat wont be enough. But I have to have faith that this will work, I have to remember why I am doing it and not think about my stomach the whole time. I have to admit that it feels really good that when I looked at the scale and it said I had lost 8 pounds that had me floored! I am hoping and praying that will keep me going through out the day!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
This morning I started my new diet! I hope and pray that this will work I have never done any thing so drastic. I have done the Atkins diet, lost weight while I was on it, I have done the south beach diet, I got lost in that one, I have done the slim fast diet, that one tasted better but never lost any weight on it. I have never had the money to do Jenny Craig or weight watchers. So I am off to trying my hands at the HCG diet. I am so scared for you cant mess up on this diet. And knowing me I probubly will. But I have a great friend who hooked me up with the HCG and she is willing to help me through this. I have started calling her the Nazi as a joke for every day she is telling me how and where we are going to work out. I dont mind for if I did not have her there pushing me I would not do it. So on Monday I went over to her house did 5 minutes one the tread mill ( I know that is not a lot of time, but I was almost running on it) I did around 75 sit ups, and lifted weights, so all in all every thing took me about and hour worth of working out. On Tuesday she and her friend came to pick me up for my surprise. Well needless to say was not a very fun surprise,(it was fun in the sence of we were laughing the whole time, but not fun in the actule working out scence) So they came and picked the girls and I up, and then drove us up to Unity Pass, (about three and a half miles from our home) We parked the car there, then walked home. That was not as bad as I thought it was going to be, I did not start hurting until we got to the school by our house. We had a blast on that walk, welll yesterday was a rest and a loading day. So greatful for the rest, because my legs were so sore I could not even stand up with out screaming out, but I noticed that once I did stand up and get walking my legs did not hurt, but as soon as I layed down or sat down I was in sever pain again. So I went walking for like 30 minutes yesterday just so I could try and streach out my musles. Well today is the day that I started my first shot and is my last day of loading. Today we are going back to the top of unity pass and walking it again. I know I will be in a ton of pain but I just need to work through it I need to just deal with it so I can get skinny. I am greatful that I have friends who are willing to help me out with my loosing the weight. If I did not have them behind me pushing and shoving me I would not do any thing and I would continue to balloon up. I am sick of being my size. I want to get skinny. I have 4 friends who are willing to help me with it. I have one friend who is willing to do Zumba with me 2 days a week ( I will start doing that once I get the money to do that) I have another friend who wish willing to walk with me whenever I want (hopefuly every day but sundays) then I have my friends who I call the Nazis (but I do it with love) who are not only pushing me (hard) on the walking thing they are also willing do lift weights and other things with me so I am not just walking the whole time. I am still very stressed about my weight, I stood on the scale today and it told me my weight, I told my husband "Jeremy the scale is lying to me again" He just laughed. But I am really sick of this weight and I have to do something!
HOPE AND PRAY FOR ME THAT THIS WILL WORK!
HOPE AND PRAY FOR ME THAT THIS WILL WORK!