305- day 11

Yes I know I weigh the same. But the truth is my weight has gone up and it has gone down in the past few days. I am still on the shots. They are going well, I have lost 15 pounds since I have started. That is very nice. I am getting a little frustrated that I am not seeing the pounds come off quicker. But I am starting to notice that my tummy is not as big. I can look down while standing up, and I see my boobs and not just a big fat pouch under the boobs. So I guess I should go out and buy my self a tape measure so then that way I can measure my stomich every day instead of my weight. I am having a really hard time staying motivated to walk on the treadmill. I get on there and it is so boring! Then I end up only walking 5 or 10 minutes unstead of the hour hour in a half that I do out side. I know that part of the problem is the cold, I dont want to get out there and walk in the cold with the girls, unless I have some one telling me ok we are going walking today and we will be there in 10 minutes. Its weird for excersize I need people telling me that we are going out to excersize and they give me no choice. I normally really hate that but it seems like for excersizing I have no other choice. That just seems to work better with me. The diet it self is still going good, I have not cheated once. Which I am really shocked about, I thought I would start cheating a long time ago. I went to my familys superbowl party and I was amazed I did not cheat and have any of the things that they were having. One of my key motivation things (that was keeping me motivated) is gone now. I really wanted to go to Spain skinny, I wanted to fit in the air plane seat with out asking for a seat belt extention. I wanted to be skinny while I was over there and look cute in a new swimmingsuit. But we filed for our tax return and it was not as high as we were expecting. So Jeremy gets to go over with out me. I knew there was a good chance I would not be able to go but, I never really thought I would not be going. So I think my new motivation is to be skinny for my 10 year high school reunion. Its scary though for that is a year and a half away. But I have all ways wanted to prove my class mates wrong. I want to prove that I am not just a blimp, I can be pretty as well. I have to say I hope this weight will start comming off faster then it is. Cause I am getting a little discouraged that the weight on the scale is not going down day after day. I know my neighber said it could go one of two ways, it could be that I loose a bunch of weight at the beginging and then twords the end I start loosing the inches, or I can loose the inches at the begining and the loose all the weight at the end. I seem to be doing the latter. I am 1/3 the way done with my shots (I have 19 left) Then after my shots I have 3 weeks of stabalazation. That puts me at March 20th. It seems like forever a way and I am hoping it will pass by quicker then I am expecting it to. I have so many partys comming up and holidays that it is really hard to pass up the yummy food. But I do have to admit it is getting easier to pass it up. But I still find it really hard when they have cakes and cookies and thouse types of yummy things! Please pray for me that I can find the motivation and that I can stick to the diet! I need all the help and support I can get!