What I had to BREAKFAST: Surgerie hotcakes
What I had for LUNCH: a buritto
What I had for DINNER: A roast, mashed patatos, and carrots
What I had for SNACKS: Raisins and one chips ahoy cookie, and grapes
What were my cravings for the day? chocholate
Did I fall in to my cravings? Sort of I had two glasses of chocholate milk, does that count?
How much WATER did I drink today? 1 glass
How much POP did I drink today? 1 coke
How much JUICE did I drink today? 0
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 0
What CHORES did I do today? put food away
How much do I weigh tonight?
So I have not been doing to well with the excersize I have been really depressed lately and it seems like all I want to do is sleep and cry not sure why. I have a few ideas why but. I dont know, right now it is just really bad and I am trying to hold it together, does not help that right now I feel like I should go see a therapist. Just so I can talk to some one with out being judged. I dont know. But tomorrow is a new day and I hope I wake up on the right side of the bed so I can get back on the treadmill and walk this stupid weight away. I am trying to eat healthier, not skip meals. But it seems like I keep on adding weight on any ways, and people keep on telling me I am doing it wrong. I am trying my hardest, I am new at this. Its very frustrating to try and change your whole life style around in a few short days, when I have lived like this my whole life. I wish I could just go and get lap band, then that way I wont be able to eat surgur and I will all ways have a small stomach so I cant eat very much. Not like I eat a ton now any ways but I still would like to have it done any one have an extra 15000.00 laying around some were so I can go and get the surgery done? I just need to find out what is kick starting this depression and fix it. I think some of it is, my husband works between 15-18 hours a day. I see him work so hard get so little sleep and every thing he struggles through, and we still have no flippin money, we dont go out to dinner,movie,amusement parks,museums. Andy thing like that, we dont spend any money on any thing unless we absolutely need it. So why in the heck do we still have no money? Oh ya we also pay our tithing. So I dont know I know that is just one of the things that is really bothering me right now. But I need to find out what else is eating a way at me and fix that. I need to figure out how to get out of this rut and move on so I will have the motivation to keep excersizing and getting healthier, not only for my self but also for my family. I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!
