Saturday, July 10th, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: Way to much my mom took my family out to golden caral
What I had for LUNCH:2 cookies and some nuts
What I had for DINNER: ramon
What I had for SNACKS:
What were my cravings for the day? none to stuffed from breakfast
Did I fall in to my cravings?na
How much WATER did I drink today?1 glass
How much POP did I drink today?1 glass
How much JUICE did I drink today? 0
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 1 hour
What CHORES did I do today? watered lawn and went yard saling
How much do I weigh tonight? I will do this once a week


So today I was horrible for my mom offered to take us out to breakfast. And then during lunch I was at a bridal shower. So I did not do good today, but hey there will always be tom!
And to answer some of your quistions I have not been eating fruits and veggies for we can not afford them right now, it is either that or formula and diapers, So of course I will get the stuff for my daughter first. I can survive on ramon and other stuff until we can afford the healthy stuff again
I WANT TO LIVE, I NEED TO LIVE!

Friday, July 9th,2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: a bowl of honey bunches of oats with almonds
What I had for LUNCH: ramon
What I had for DINNER:2.5 hot dogs with honey mustered
What I had for SNACKS: 1 creamie, 1 hostess cup cake, 2 pieces of toast
What were my cravings for the day? Chocholate
Did I fall in to my cravings? Yep had the creamie
How much WATER did I drink today? maybe two cups? I am going to try and start drinking 1/2 gallon a day, that is just to start.
How much POP did I drink today? None
How much JUICE did I drink today? None
How much EXERCISE did I do today? Not quite sure went up and down the stairs a ton of times. And I have steap stairs.
What CHORES did I do today? Two batches of laundry and watered the lawn.
How much do I weigh tonight? I dont want to know but hear it goes... 302 up four pounds. Can that really happen gain four pounds in a day? I dont think so dumb scale!

I went to look at my treadmill today! I love it, the lady said she would deliver it tom! I cant wait to have it and to start using it! No more being lazy for me! Hopefuly this will help relieave some of my stress. I get mad at my kids or stressed with how messy the house is I can go and walk until I dont feel stressed any more, then that way my kids will still be with me, but I can have them go watch a movie or go to sleep while I work out! I dont have to worry about doing it when they are awake, or the dead of the heat or when it is dark at night. I will not be limited to when I can excersize! I can do it when it is convinent for me! I wont have to worry about finding a baby sitter to go to golds gym or what ever work out places there are, not that I can afford that any way. This will help relive me of so many of my limitations! I cant wait! I know my husband does not think I can or that I will do this. But I NEED to do this! I need to get healthy for my kids and for my self! I want to live dang it! I WANT TO LIVE!

Thursday, July 8th, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: Four pieces of bread with mayonase and chips on them to make a sandwich.
What I had for LUNCH: None
What I had for DINNER: I had two cheddar worst. One on a bun with ranch dressing, the other I ate with honey mustered
What I had for SNACKS:1 heresy dark chocolate kiss.
What were my cravings for the day? Chocolate, cookies
Did I fall in to my cravings? Yes I had both, but I made one of thous betty crocker bags of cookie mix and ate that through out the day. Sadly to say its all gone
How much WATER did I drink today? Maybe one glass?
How much POP did I drink today? One swallow! Then I put it back in the fridge, It was a Red vault.
How much JUICE did I drink today? I had one glass full of Raspberry Lemonaide.
How much EXERCISE did I do today? None
What CHORES did I do today? I picked up my room, washed three batches of laundry and folded and put them away.

I hope I can do this! I want to be able to loose the weight! I will hopefully get my treadmill tomorrow! I want to be able to say yes I excersize! I want to be skinny. My goal is not a size 2 I will be happy if I even get down to a size 18, but my over all goal is a size 16! I hope this will work! Please leave me a message so I can have support other wise I might fail! I cant afford to do that LITTERLY my life is at stake here!

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I will hopefuly be getting my treadmill tommarow! I am making this blog to keep my self honest. I figure if I am honest with my self maybe I can get something done. If you are going to read this blog and laugh at me about my size dont read it. This is me being true to my self, putting my feelings out there. I want to be able to loose the weight for my kids. I want to be able to fit in a ride at lagoon with out them trying to stuff me into the ride. I want to be able to sit on a seat on the bus with out hanging over the edge. I would like to be able to sit on a seat with out worring if I am going to break it or not. I would like to sit on a seat that has sides on it with out it squishing my legs. I would like to walk down the road with out people pointing at me saying look there goes the fat lady! I want to LIVE! And I want to have fun doing it!