I am back! Aug 11, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: a piece of toast

What I had for LUNCH: Taco bell, Chicken gordita, Chicken chalupa

What I had for DINNER: Quinwa

What I had for SNACKS: a cup cake

What were my cravings for the day? Surger

Did I fall in to my cravings? Sort of I had my cup cake

How much WATER did I drink today? A 20oz bottle

How much POP did I drink today? a medium cup of Mountain Dew Blast

How much JUICE did I drink today? 0

How much EXERCISE did I do today? about 1 hours worth

What CHORES did I do today? took care of the kids

How much do I weigh tonight? 306

Well I am back now! So I will be picking up my blog again sorry about it taking so long!

I am now taking Niacen which is a pill that you take once a day and it helps you detox all the crud out of your system and helps you loose the weight faster. So I will be trying that and hopefuly it will work, I hate how I feel while I am on it but it works so we will see how it goes.

I am going to start going for walks with my neighber in the mornings, I am hoping and praying that if I have some one to walk with it will be easier, but I am not sure. But it will be worth a shot, I just need to get out there and do it, no more excusese!

While on vacation I got TONS of excersize I dont think there was more then a few hours at a time that I sat down. Just a few of the things we have done on our vacation:

-Thanksgiving Point, walked around the Dino Musium, and the petting zoo that took about four hours

- Walked around a whole bunch of stores for about 7 hours straight.

-Went to Cow-a-bunga Bay, We were there for about 4 1/2 hours. Got torched but had a blast.

-Went to the Bees game. walked from the trax station to the ball park then up a bunch of stairs quite a few times while carring Casaya.

- Went to Chuck E Cheeses for a few hours and played the games.

-On another day we went shoping to a whole bunch of stores for 8 1/2 hours straight.

So yes we did have fun, but I did do a ton of excersize. We did a lot more stuff but since it is one in the morning I can not think of them right off the bat.

So Keep me in your prayers that I can do this, and that I wont loose hope.

I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!

Sunday, July 25th,2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: A glass of chocholate milk
What I had for LUNCH: A turkey sandwich
What I had for DINNER: Pork burrito, watermelon and nachos
What I had for SNACKS: a creamie
What were my cravings for the day? Chocholate
Did I fall in to my cravings? Yes had a creamie
How much WATER did I drink today? 1 glass
How much POP did I drink today? 2 swallows (shared with Jer and he drank most of it)
How much JUICE did I drink today? One glass full of7 up with fresh limes squeezed in it
How much EXERCISE did I do today? Not much
What CHORES did I do today? none went to my moms instead
How much do I weigh tonight?

Still under a lot of stress but dont feel so much like crawling in a hole any more, which is good I guess. I got rid of Ashley for a few days. She is at my moms for a "Princess Party" So I am hoping to get more excersize since she will be gone. I am also hoping to get more chores done! The first of the family is commin in on Tuesday, so we will go and see them on Wednesday. Then the rest will be comming in some time after that. I will not always get to a computer, I will try my hardest, but no garentees. We will be staying at my moms house for the next few weeks while family is in town, so I might be able to update it, that is if I dont get home to late and go strait to bed. So know that I will still be watching what I eat, but I will be getting a lot more excersize, dont know what the family has planned, but I know that one day they want to do Lagoon or Raging Waters. So lots of excersize there. Plus we will be going to lots of free places like Wheeler Farm and Liberty park, and the gateway. I cant wait! I know it will be stressful for me having family in town, but I need to remember, this week is not about me, it is about them, So I need to learn to keep my trap closed even if I dont agree, but I also need to remember, not to turn in to my shell and close down, I need to try and have fun and not worry about what every one else thinks! So yes it will be stressful but I will have fun also! I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!

Thursday, July 23, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: Surgerie hotcakes
What I had for LUNCH: a buritto
What I had for DINNER: A roast, mashed patatos, and carrots
What I had for SNACKS: Raisins and one chips ahoy cookie, and grapes
What were my cravings for the day? chocholate
Did I fall in to my cravings? Sort of I had two glasses of chocholate milk, does that count?
How much WATER did I drink today? 1 glass
How much POP did I drink today? 1 coke
How much JUICE did I drink today? 0
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 0
What CHORES did I do today? put food away
How much do I weigh tonight?

So I have not been doing to well with the excersize I have been really depressed lately and it seems like all I want to do is sleep and cry not sure why. I have a few ideas why but. I dont know, right now it is just really bad and I am trying to hold it together, does not help that right now I feel like I should go see a therapist. Just so I can talk to some one with out being judged. I dont know. But tomorrow is a new day and I hope I wake up on the right side of the bed so I can get back on the treadmill and walk this stupid weight away. I am trying to eat healthier, not skip meals. But it seems like I keep on adding weight on any ways, and people keep on telling me I am doing it wrong. I am trying my hardest, I am new at this. Its very frustrating to try and change your whole life style around in a few short days, when I have lived like this my whole life. I wish I could just go and get lap band, then that way I wont be able to eat surgur and I will all ways have a small stomach so I cant eat very much. Not like I eat a ton now any ways but I still would like to have it done any one have an extra 15000.00 laying around some were so I can go and get the surgery done? I just need to find out what is kick starting this depression and fix it. I think some of it is, my husband works between 15-18 hours a day. I see him work so hard get so little sleep and every thing he struggles through, and we still have no flippin money, we dont go out to dinner,movie,amusement parks,museums. Andy thing like that, we dont spend any money on any thing unless we absolutely need it. So why in the heck do we still have no money? Oh ya we also pay our tithing. So I dont know I know that is just one of the things that is really bothering me right now. But I need to find out what else is eating a way at me and fix that. I need to figure out how to get out of this rut and move on so I will have the motivation to keep excersizing and getting healthier, not only for my self but also for my family. I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!

? for people reading this

I am surching the net for info about weight loss pills. I am looking to jump start the weightloss. I dont want to rely on them to loose all the weight. I just want to get it started. Any one heard of any good companys or pills?

Monday, july 19th, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: A bowl of watermelon
What I had for LUNCH: A casadilla with cheese, tomatos, and onions
What I had for DINNER: Peanutbutter and jelly sandwich and a small slice of pizza
What I had for SNACKS: none
What were my cravings for the day? chocholate
Did I fall in to my cravings? no
How much WATER did I drink today? about 1/2 gallen
How much POP did I drink today? 1/2 can
How much JUICE did I drink today? none
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 1800steps=10min
What CHORES did I do today? rearanged my bedroom

Had a hard day, some people telling me I am never going to loose the weight. I am trying my hardest and I cant go from what I am doing now to all of the sudden eating what a 110 pound person does. It is going to take time for me to get there. It is also going to take time for learn how to eat healthy I am trying my hardest. I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!

Sunday, July 18th, 2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: Nothing
What I had for LUNCH: A couple of animal crackers
What I had for DINNER: Pizza watermelon, Salad
What I had for SNACKS:
What were my cravings for the day? none
Did I fall in to my cravings?na
How much WATER did I drink today? 2 glasses
How much POP did I drink today? 1/2 can shared with Jeremy
How much JUICE did I drink today? 5 glasses of slushie lemonaid
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 15 min 1139 steps = 10 min on treadmill
What CHORES did I do today? none
How much do I weigh tonight? 302

I have not been slacking on my weight loss stuff, I have been so tired at night I just go to bed and pass out. Yesterday I went yard sale shopping with my mom for 4 hours! Lots of walking out in the heat! I am starting to get frustrated for I excersize every day and the weight is not coming off. Yes I know I need to excersize more often and longer during the day. But as of right now I do 10 min on the treadmill I get off and I get really light headed and dizzy. My husband said it is cause I dont drink enough water so my body is throwing fits. I dont know. I am trying my hardest I just have to keep on praying that the weight will come off. We were finally able to score a food order from the church so we will get our fruits veggies meats formulas and diapers on Wednesday! I can not wait! Any one have some good, easy and fast recipes? I only know how to cook like three dishes! And I am pretty sure Jeremy is sick of those by now! I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!

Tuesday, July 13,2010

What I had to BREAKFAST: A bowl of reeses cereal.
What I had for LUNCH: Toast
What I had for DINNER:Braughtworst
What I had for SNACKS: creamie
What were my cravings for the day? chocolate
Did I fall in to my cravings? sort of had a chocolate dipped creamie
How much WATER did I drink today? 1 glass
How much POP did I drink today? 1 can
How much JUICE did I drink today? 1 glass
How much EXERCISE did I do today? 10 min
What CHORES did I do today? Nothing much but I did get out the high chair and scrub it down from top to bottom.

I slacked today I have to admit that I did not slack in the eating department but I did slack in the excersize department. I waited and waited for Ashley to take a nap so I could get on the treadmill, and by the time she finally went down, I went down also! Oops my bad, but with all the stress I have been under lately I know sleep is what I need right now, that and excersize, I will do better tomorrow. I want to live, I NEED TO LIVE!